Book Excerpt: THE NESTING by C.J. Cooke
Available September 2020
You know that feeling when you learn about a book that sounds so extremely up your alley, it almost feels like the author wrote it tailor-made for you? That’s my sneaking suspicion about C.J. Cooke’s forthcoming release THE NESTING, which will hit US bookstores in September. This book is—wait for it—a Gothic suspense novel set in Norway. Yes, you read that right, and this might just be the perfect combination for my reading tastes (and, I suspect, for many of yours, too!). THE NESTING follows an architect who has just built his dream high-concept home in Norway, and a nanny who begins to fear that something isn’t quite right in the house… and that something sinister might be lurking in its shadows. I am beyond excited for this book: it has a Norwegian setting, a story of Gothic suspense, a character working on writing a Scandinavian crime novel… basically all of my favorite things wrapped up in one chilling package. THE NESTING is one of my personal most-anticipated reads of the fall season.
Thanks to C.J. Cooke’s US publisher, I’m absolutely thrilled to be able to give CBTB readers an early glimpse into THE NESTING. In this blog post, you will be able to learn more about the book, including plot details and fabulous early praise from CBTB-favorite authors like Simone St. James (!), and you will also be able to read an early excerpt from the book’s first chapter. I am so excited to dig into this book as we get a bit closer to its US publication, and I’m thrilled to be able to share this sneak peek with you! Happy reading!
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THE NESTING by C.J. Cooke
Available September 2020
About the Book:
The woods are creeping in on a nanny and two young girls in this chilling modern Gothic thriller.
Architect Tom Faraday is determined to finish the high-concept, environmentally friendly home he’s building in Norway—in the same place where he lost his wife, Aurelia, to suicide. It was their dream house, and he wants to honor her with it.
Lexi Ellis takes a job as his nanny and immediately falls in love with his two young daughters, especially Gaia. But something feels off in the isolated house nestled in the forest along the fjord. Lexi sees mysterious muddy footprints inside the home. Aurelia’s diary appears in Lexi’s room one day. And Gaia keeps telling her about seeing the terrifying Sad Lady. . . .
Soon Lexi suspects that Aurelia didn’t kill herself and that they are all in danger from something far more sinister lurking around them.
"A taut, scary thriller that winds the suspense so tightly you can barely breathe. I was rooting for the heroine all the way to the terrifying conclusion. This one will definitely keep you up at night."--Simone St. James, New York Times bestselling author of The Sun Down Motel
"Norwegian fjords and folktales are beautifully evoked in this vivid and compelling novel."--Rosamund Lupton, New York Times bestselling author of Sister
“A gorgeous, atmospheric book that chilled me to the bone. The perfect escape book into the deep woods of Norway, where nothing is as it seems. C. J. Cooke just became one of my favorite authors.”--Samantha Downing, USA Today bestselling author of My Lovely Wife
EXCERPT: THE NESTING
By C.J. Cooke
1
endless dark
Now
Meg was the one who found me slumped against the bathroom wall with red pouring out of my arms. I could make out what she was saying though it sounded like we were under water. Oh no, oh no. Lexi! What the hell have you done, Lexi?
She crouched in front of me and I wanted to tell her not to because she was going to ruin her lovely yellow skirt by kneeling in my blood. Also there was glass on the floor from the mirror I’d smashed and I’d feel awful if she cut herself.
She grabbed some towels, wrapped them around my arms, and started to cry when she couldn’t tie them tight enough. Have you ever tried to tie a knot in a towel? Really difficult, it turns out.
Meg dialed 999 on her phone. By this stage I was swooping in and out of consciousness—I’d taken a fistful of paracetamol, just in case—and I could no longer decipher between reality and hallucination, which is always fine by me as long as neither is threatening. They must have hoiked me down the stairs and into the ambulance, but I don’t remember any of this. I woke up in the hospital a few hours later, puking my guts up. I’ve no idea what they gave me, but it was efficient in wringing me out. They stitched me up, masked the cuts with padded dressings.
Meg came back the next day and brought me lunch in a brown paper bag and looked tearful when I said I couldn’t touch it. David came and I immediately felt guilty again for being a burden on him. He said, “I had to use annual leave to come see you. What happened? Why are you here, Lex?”
I had no answer. I wondered if he’d had to clean up the blood. David was always squeamish.
A doctor came along, stood beside my bed with his hands in his pockets.
“Lexi, before we send you home we need to be sure you won’t do this again. We need you to sign a form saying that you have no more plans to harm yourself.”
He produced a form. I signed it. I took the bus home.
On the phone my mother said that I was always an attention seeker. I read somewhere that those who get under our skin are our best teachers, and while it sticks in me to call my mother a teacher of any kind, I’ll say that her comment inadvertently sparked an epiphany, because even as she moved on to give me a blow-by-blow account of that morning’s Jerry Springer, I realized that she was part of the reason I’d tried to top myself. And secondly, I realized that if I was to stay alive, I should probably stop speaking to her altogether.
I lost my job. I was working as an administrator at a care home and took a month off to recover. I didn’t get a medical note, so they sacked me. It was probably illegal, but the thing with illness, mental or otherwise, is that it tends to annihilate your capacity for argument. At the time I was spending twenty-three hours a day in bed. For the first few weeks I mostly slept, though I had such psychedelic nightmares that it wasn’t exactly restful. Dreams about my childhood, about my mother telling me she wished I’d never been born. Dreams of being shipped out to strangers while she “sorted herself out.”
David didn’t say much to me during this time. He went out to work every morning, sent me a text at lunchtime, and then came home at dinnertime with a ready meal or takeout. I didn’t eat much. He’d sit in bed beside me marking homework assignments while I tried to follow Game of Thrones. When the cuts healed I started sleeping less, and the fear set in again. I asked David if I could go to work with him and he looked at me like I’d suggested he get a full body wax.
“Come to work with me? What for?”
I didn’t want to say I was lonely at home. “Because I’m lonely at home.”
“Go back to work, then.”
“They sacked me, remember?”
“Can’t you just look for a new job?”
“I could sit in the staff room and read.”
“You can’t do that . . .”
“Why not?”
“It would be weird, Lexi. You know it would.”
“Maybe the janitor’s cupboard.”
“The what?”
“Don’t schools still have those? Mine did.”
“Look, I’ll FaceTime you.”
He didn’t FaceTime me.
I went to the public library, but it was too loud. People were staring and it felt like being branded with hot irons. The books were full of stories that shouted at me and I worried they might fly off the shelves and hit me. Difficult to explain these kinds of things when a librarian is leaning over you asking why you’re hyperventilating on the floor.
So I went home, opened my laptop, and started to write. I wrote and wrote and wrote. It was like the story was being dictated to me. It was about a twenty-eight-year-old woman who had a nightmarish childhood due to her mother passing her around to strangers who did terrible things to her, and the girl grew up to be an inventor and made millions and learned self-respect. Note the feminist angle. It was set in Norway. After my doomed trip to the public library, I realized I’d somehow managed to check out some novels, all of them whodunits set in bleak, Nordic landscapes. Scandi noir. After I finished reading them I thought, That’s what my book is. I tweaked a few details and lo, a Scandi noir it became.
I knew David was going to break up with me. We’d been together eight years and the last six had been fairly rough going. He was like the Arctic. Impenetrable, cold, rugged. I used to find these qualities attractive. Or rather, I remembered the look on my mother’s face when she met him. She was all timid, couldn’t get her words out. He was middle class, which is a bit like saying he was from Middle-earth, wielding a sword that turned blue at the prospect of charging orcs. My mother finds middle-class people—or in other words, anyone with a mortgage—intimidating.
That was reason enough for me to move in with him.
Being dumped went far worse than I’d expected. I hadn’t really considered that the flat was technically David’s and that if we broke up I might end up homeless, but there it was. He came home and looked like he’d had a few drinks, and he said:
“I can’t do this anymore, Lexi. I can’t take it. You’re too much.”
I looked at what he was wearing—since when had he started wearing a shirt and tie?—and said, “Too much of what?”
“Too much of you. We need to split. I’m sorry.”
We hugged. It seemed very amicable. I felt a small amount of pride in what ego I had left that here I was facing the first big milestone of adulthood—namely, the death of my first long-term relationship—and yet I was still managing to say things like “no, no, you’re right, it’s better that we stay friends, that’s the main thing” instead of falling apart. I felt very fond of him right then, because at least he looked like he regretted us parting ways.
But the next morning, he was back to being the Arctic personified.
“When are you moving out?” he said, avoiding eye contact as he did his tie. Navy blue with white stripes. Very corporate.
I looked around at all my stuff strewn across the bedroom floor and spewing out of the chest of drawers. I had barely enough strength to make it to the toilet and back, never mind pack eight years’ worth of crap and organize a removal company. And a new home.
“When do you want me to move out?” I asked.
“By next week, if that’s all right,” he said, and I nodded as though this was a perfectly reasonable request. Note: I’d never done Breaking Up before, not when it involved moving out of my home. And I was on a daily 100 mg dose of an antipsychotic that occasionally made the bread bin initiate a conversation.
Next week came. I got dressed. Jeans, white T-shirt, bottle-green cardi, and a laser-cut necklace that spelled out protagonist in glossy black Helvetica. I filled a bag with some random items I thought I might need—a tin opener, clean socks, the toaster—and made a packed lunch.
I had forty-one pounds and fifty-nine pence in my bank account. I eyed my wardrobe, full of clothes, shoes, and Christmas presents, with trepidation. You might as well have asked me to dredge up the Titanic as ask me to find a way to pack all of it up. It didn’t occur to me to ask anyone for help. I’d put everyone through enough. I’d ruined Meg’s yellow skirt and traumatized that poor librarian.
So I took my packed lunch and bag and closed the door of the flat behind me, leaving my key on the table.
When I went outside it was raining. I didn’t have an umbrella. I had a coat, but no hood. This felt symbolic of my life up until that point. She had a coat, but lo, it had no hood.
I reached into my pocket in case I should find an unused poo bag from walking Mrs. Hughes’s springer spaniel with which to shield my head against the downpour. No poo bag, but I did find David’s prepaid rail pass. I’d found it in the hall and meant to give it to him, but the thought had trickled out of my head like a ribbon falling out of a ponytail.
At Newcastle I took a train headed to Birmingham New Street with lots of stops in between. I had no idea where I was going, and it didn’t matter, because the train was moving, and it was a mild comfort to be headed somewhere when my entire life had come to a complete stop. Plus, I was dry, and my arms ached from hoiking around the Tefal four-slice stainless steel toaster that David had bought me for my last birthday.
The train was full of commuters. As ever I picked up on the cues of people’s lives—accounts spreadsheets, text messages flashing up on screens with evening plans and reminders to pick up milk, phone conversations about a colleague or a sick aunt. I started to have those thoughts again, the ones that had persuaded me that I was already dead so it wouldn’t be a big deal if I committed suicide. It would be a relief, and everyone would benefit from it. I started to cry. No one paid any heed until my shoulders started bobbing up and down, and then a group of women gathered around me like hens and asked me what was wrong. I told them I’d broken up with my boyfriend.
“Dear, oh, dear,” one of them said, and another said, “Well, if you ask me, he sounds like a Grade A cockwomble,” and they hugged me to their fleshy bosoms.
The train stopped at Durham. The hens told me I was pretty and young and didn’t need a man, and then they got off the train. I dabbed my eyes and kept my gaze fixed on the cathedral, on its sharp spires jabbing the bellies of clouds. Cars threaded through the streets and a smudge of kids played in a back garden. I envied them their central heating and washing machines, the comfortable beds that they’d be able to climb into at the end of the day. I had none of that, now, and I had the sensation of being a tiny boat cut loose and drifting rapidly along a thrashing river with a waterfall thundering in the distance. To make matters worse, it occurred to me that I’d left my medication in David’s flat. I found my mobile phone in my bra and rang his number, but it didn’t connect. He had blocked me.
Panic started to stir in me like a thousand manic butterflies. What was I going to do? Where would I go?
I would end it.
That’s what I would do.
Properly, this time.
My own reflection came into view in the glass, and I jumped, thinking at first that a woman had somehow materialized on the other side of the window. But no, it was me. I barely recognized myself. It had been ages since I looked in a mirror—I deliberately avoided this because I hated myself so much—but there I was, looking back at myself.
My reflection had a surprising look of grit. She didn’t look nearly as awful as I felt. She was thin, yes, and her outgrown brown bob was messy, and she had dark circles under her eyes, but she looked like someone I’d like to talk to. Someone who would listen and not wait until it was their turn to offer an opinion.
My reflection said, You’re writing a book, remember? If you die, the book won’t get finished.
I remembered I’d promised myself that I’d finish writing this damn book. This untitled Scandi noir that was unfolding quite nicely, unlike my miserable life. I owed it to that book—to the little girl in the story, Alexa, who suffered so much—to tell the world her story.
Excerpted from THE NESTING by C.J. Cooke, published by Berkley, an imprint of Penguin Publishing Group, a division of Penguin Random House, LLC. Copyright © 2020 by C.J. Cooke
Book Details:
Paperback: 368 pages
Publisher: Berkley (September 29, 2020)
Language: English
ISBN-10: 0593197666
ISBN-13: 978-0593197660
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